UA progress update. I’ve been stuck on this one track I’ve been working on. Normally I just leave it and go to something else. But I’m committed to finishing it. In general I’m sick of not finishing things. I want to explore all these different ideas but I just end up making fragments of stuff.
What really gets me is how some people can finish music so easily. For me it gets really stressful. I have to push through it. While I spend months trying to get myself to finish one song, some other person out there completed 4. It kills me. And it’s not me not trying, I put in the work. But it always feels like what I put in I don’t get back. Hardest thing is working close to a month on a song, finally finishing and realizing there was so much time wasted which amounted to absolutely nothing.
UA has helped. I’ve been moving past blocks and able to execute my ideas better overall. But I also feel like my unrelenting high standards for my own work just stomps all over my progress. One one hand it’s good I have a realistic view of where I’m at skill wise because I know how to grow. Some people are so delusional and just stay where they are because they’re convinced their music is amazing. On the other hand it’s paralyzing working on a project and realizing just how much I still don’t “get” or understand how to do. And it’s not technical stuff, it’s just the actual skill of songwriting.
I have trouble shutting that part off. If I could I’d just pump out tracks and bridge that gap, but as it stands I keep getting stuck and it’s frustrating.