Ascension is really kicking my butt. Not really sure how it might be catalyzing with Prim Sed or Spart.
I am just so close to anger all the time. There is a feeling that I have been let down by others and they deserve my wrath.
So anyway, if you are reading this, well fuck you.¯_ಠ_ಠ_/¯
Feeling unsettled today. Every year I travel back to visit my mom in the place where I grew up for Memorial Day weekend, but not this year.
Anger and restlessness are an undercurrent in my Ascension listening.
Creating Spotify playlists by myself and with friends. The most recent concept is “obsessed”. What songs can’t you stop listening to?
Music reveals a lot about people. I am often befuddled by the music people choose to listen to.
I feel like in some subtle ways my identity has been shifting over the last several months. I have no desire to be too detailed about that on a public forum, but it is interesting how you can get subtle shifts and they cast your entire life in a different light.
Kind of pissed off and inert today. Finding weird ways that I am letting myself think in ways I didn’t before. Everybody seems so focused on getting what they think are the correct answers, joining the team that backs those belief systems and then defending them.
Nothing is true. Belief systems and “correct” answers are a prison.
Less than usual happening in the outer world, but so much of the usual and even some unusual turmoil beneath.
I have really been practicing my online sexy talk . A lot of fun and it is amazing how turned on women get. It is also nice to be able to demonstrate and deploy mad skillz.