I’m going to skip the weekend updates for now, as while interesting it seems inconsequential
compared to some other things.
I’ve been learning alot about mind-body syndrome, tension myotis syndrome, spiritual healing, brain-body connection lately, and that in combination with my subliminal use has allowed me to really make progress out of chronic nagging pain and back to full lifting and moving as I wanted. Yesterday after some time at the gym, I went to pull my self up using a squat bar very lightly and got his with an electric shock feeling like an acute back injury, I’ve had this happen every few years and usually it leads to insane spasming, depression, and walking out of the gym. I felt detatched as it was happening and told my self it was TMS, and calmed myself down, the trajectory towards the spasms calmed tremendously and I felt much better but still was very tight, I dropped the weights finished the work out and walked home. As the adrenal wore off and into this morning it still feels very tight, with some weakness and pain like the worst ‘injuries’ I’ve had. I don’t feel depressed, I feel frustrated that such a goo sprint in progress needs to be reset, but it also may not. I’ll go back to the gym tomorrow or Thursday. But what’s interesting is I see the victimized/depressed, feeling emotionally that comes up when this happens and it is not new, it is an emotional energetic blueprint that I keep finding circumstances to fulfill it’s existence, as I’m using healing subs I see the impact of those events are lessening as I heal out of this. Will likely run Elixir and The Beast WIthin to Support, or maybe get a healing based Ultima early.
Since adding Alchemist I am doing things that fit direction ally into larger goals rather than busy work. I’m re-assessing where I put my time and energy and even what I value. Also normally I need a blow dryer to restart my phone if it has died fully-heat for resistance helps current- the girl whose blow dryer I usually use is out of my life right now, so instead I had this crazy idea to direct heat with my hand at the phone, after it had been plugged in and not turning on for quite a while, so I did that for 30 seconds and the phone turned on. lol This is not the kind of thing I do or think to do normally at all.