It’s testing week !! (when isn’t it )
But first some DR updates-stage 1
I’ve actually been running DR loops since a little after thanksgiving so I’m over a month on it now. Usually 1-2 loops a day. Man it’s a different world. I realized
I know longer fear for my safety -around kitchen knives, hot water, walking in the street, dogs near by…beneath my ‘confidence’ was a hyper vigilance, that the world was not a safe place, I know feel very secure in my being physically. This is distinct than the sense of social and sexual security I started to build on Emperor
ZERO back pain-my chronic back issues are gone-caput-done in full, I believe running this with Azriel Q helped. I still have a minor tweak or concern hear or there, but it seems more mental, in reality I’m walking around and working out free
No family conflict ! This was the most peaceful Christmas since adolescence.
I really, genuinely, authentically love myself and feel I am a catch, I’ve been a seller playing a buyer really well in life and dating, and I am transitioning genuinely into a buyer. Staying a heterosexual pitcher.
There is an ease to life, it’s like the drama, and intensity of everything has been turned down.
I am confident and happy to be without work if that is what is best for my life path. It has not come to that yet, but I am 100% solid in letting things go.
I’m going through everything in my life, reorganizing, cleaning up, getting rid of it, or upgrading it.
Back to testing.
Did PCC again today, man I have to keep this in the stack, it’s just such a fast game changer, I told (one of) the person I work for/with today, that I didn’t like the work I did and we should work out how to switch my function or part ways. I said it in such a loving smooth way though He said he was open to it, but I can tell he wants me where I am, cause it’s highly specialized and hard to replace, its keeps my schedule free for other work but underpays. I don’t even care about more money, I hate that role. And after I told him this I felt like I was reborn-my life freed up. I can’t believe I have been holding onto this for so long. I have savings I have other work. I’ve been looking to make the most of the opportunity, but it’s time I stepped it up there or out.
The month of January will be the final months of current customs Emperor X, and Azriel Q, I’ll run them alongside DR with a PCC loop every other day- or day if I can manage. I may add an Ultima, still need to test Diamond and Limitless Executive.
In February I will add EOG to Emperor along with a HOM/PCC custom-don’t know the format yet
or I will do Khan with HOM/PCC custom just those-or with Stark/EOG -I’m considering running DR stage 1 an extra month as well in January.