The very first day i used Emperor V2 my insecurities became crystal clear. And if this isn’t a testamony for Emperors effectiveness, then nothing is. Today felt pointless, like the feeling you get after finishing an epic game or movie, and got agressive over small things.
I started thinking about my life. How being the way i am is not good. That im too good for people. That they don’t appreciate me. That everyone takes life for granted and nobody seems to get where im coming from. That my ex could still be in love with me if i was a dick to her. That maybe she would still be with me if i wasn’t as honest and caring as i was. It wasn’t about her, it was about what if this will always happen if stay true to myself. I got hurt so much i would never do that to anyone in any way.
That i will never belong in this world. That i could never strong enough to make the world react to me, instead of me obeying it’s laws.
I wish it was as trivial as looks or money. Still im very happy to be reminded of how much of a monster Emperor is. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
No dawn comes without darkness