Digger's Khan Journal


#202

I hear you, man.

Maybe somebody else has some practical insight to offer. All I know is, this crap gets difficult sometimes.

Well maybe one thing I’ll say. It’s probably hard for her too. She’s making mistakes too. Heh. That’s not much of a solution, but, probably true.

Hopefully she can understand the stress that’s on you, and you can learn more about the stress on her.

And then we can all be fucking stressed together. (That’s a joke.).

And then there can be greater understanding and support.:massage_man::massage_woman:‍♀:person_in_lotus_position:‍♂

Hang in there, bro.


#203

@d1gz - yeah, there are moments when we slide back to behaviors we don’t like. It’s one of those “two steps forward and one step back”. But you will eventually get where you want. Not perfect sailing for me either but better than before using subs. Treasure the improvements and be okay with our mistakes.


#204

ST4 DAY5

It’s still morning but feels like it’s already late. So after fighting with the wife, things seem to have settled down a bit. But shit, we now both have cough and cold. Feels like my nose is a leaky faucet.
I don’t know if it’s reconciliation or the subs but I feel so weak. Either that or because I’m subconsciously worried about my oral surgery in 2 days. I know it’s gonna effing hurt! Both my mouth and my wallet.
Also thanks to @raphael and @Malkuth for the kind words.


#205

ST4 DAY6

Been having a lot of good rapport with a lot of people lately. Even though I still had colds and cough, people were acknowledging me everywhere I go.

Still worried about my oral surgery tomorrow. Although I try not to show it. Honestly, I’m more worried for my wife as she has to shoulder the burden of picking up my kids and all that comes after.


#206

All the best on the surgery, @d1gz


#207

@raphael - surgery went fine. Still stings a bit though. Will find out in 6 weeks whether or not it went well. Will probably listen to some Sapien Medicine tracks in the meantime. I heard some of his tracks help with gum and tooth regeneration. Thanks!


#208

@raphael - speaking of Sapien Med, I came across his patreon and there was a track for eye regeneration. I recall you were looking for help regarding this one a while back. Not sure if you still need it though. But just in case, I just wanted to let you know.


#209

Thank you, @d1gz. Am aware of it but not yet purchased it. Have tried his youtube video for eye regeneration but didn’t notice much difference. Maybe have to do it for a long time.

Wishing you a quick recovery.


#210

Yeah, I guess it depends on a lot of factors @raphael. However, when I tried gum regeneration, I felt tingling in my gums as soon as I played it. Maybe it’s placebo, maybe not. But if it works, then why should I care, right?


#211

@d1gz - That’s really cool. Am curious. Did you purchase the audio? Or just use the YouTube version? Also, is it okay to use along with SubClub subs?


#212

@raphael - I first tried the YouTube version. When I felt my gums tingling, I decided to go to his Patreon site and try that one. Right now, I feel only a little pain. So either the dentist is good or it’s working, in either case I am feel better than expected.
As for mixing it with subclub’s subs, I still listen to my stack after playing it. I don’t feel bad or don’t see any negative effect. Maybe it’s a little early to say. But for now, I think it’s ok.


#213

@d1gz - that’s real good. I guess morphic fields are fine with Subclub subliminals. Will try the YouTube version first before making purchases.

Also, Sapien Medicine is one of the first channels I found on youtube when looking for a cure for my eyes (I still need more healing). I just didn’t try it long enough. And then I felt it didn’t work and thought neither would other subliminal youtube channels. Was on and off subs for years.

SubClub made me a believer from the results it gave me. And that makes me reconsider Sapien Medicine too.

Thanks for the advice.


#214

ST4 DAY7

Surgery seems to be a success. Very little pain. And when I spat earlier just to see if there was any bleeding, I didn’t see even a tiny drop.
While at the dentist, people were very friendly. I was even joking and laughing with the receptionists and nurses. Must have been a premonition that I had nothing to worry. Even when signing the papers regarding the payment scheme, I was still pretty cool. Normally I would be sweating about the cost. Not sure why I was not even worried. Could it be my subconscious telling me that good things will soon come?
Still pigging out on ice cream and cake, so my weight is definitely going to go up. But even that, I’m not particularly worried.
Could it all be attributed to Khan?
Was sleeping through most of the day as the sedative made me extremely tired and sleepy. But suddenly felt the need to study. Couldn’t really do much because my wife slept early due to cough (she drank cough medicine so it’s expected she’d be sleepy), and I didn’t want to disturb her. But the urge to study and learn may be because of both Khan and QL.