Day 14 of ST3
This is the first tiny bit of struggle I’ve had on ST3 and I assume it’s a small reconciliation happening. Nothing even near close to previous stages. And I’m still taking a lot of inspired action and getting a lot accomplished.
Last night and this morning I have found myself with a strong urge to change or add a sub, or even take a break for a couple days. I am really missing the feeling of absolute social status, confidence, and attractiveness that came with dating subs such as AM, S&S, and others.
Random contemplation: It made me think back some. The most motivated and action oriented I have ever been in life was before I knew how to get girls. Essentially all of my motivation to work hard, to make money, to live a cool lifestyle, get a cool car…was ultimately to get girls. Now that I have that area of life very well sorted, what is my motivation for money???
Edit: I also had another very vivid dream last night. In it, an ex-girlfriend (kind of the one that got away from back when I was immature and a dumbass) was telling me all the things I did wrong. Not in a mean or angry way. But in a loving, to help kind of way. Then she proceeded to make out with this fat, no hygiene, slob haha and tell me she was marrying him. I see the humor there, but I woke up feeling really sad and guilt and shame.
Anyway, of course I’m just going to ride it out as I am this far in and have made a commitment to EoG and this is a very minor reconciliation, if any. Could just be a strange day, or hormones, or the moon