subliminals are one of the important pieces on the chess board. but maybe, in this case, adjusting the positions of some of the other pieces might be worth a try?
it would be ridiculous for me to have a specific suggestion, and I don’t.
but i always remember what an effective reset your hiking trip was for you. it seemed to get you back in touch with things that felt real and right.
not that you need to go hiking every weekend. that might even be missing the point. but more like reflecting on exactly how that worked. and what it meant.
what were the meaningful elements: nature - physical movement - companionship - quiet - ???
on another, somewhat unrelated, note:
How representative of your life do you think your writings here are?
I always think about this. Even with people I’m close to.
You get a certain spectrum of narrative, from listening to and talking to someone. And then sometimes you see your friend in some other context in which you never saw them before, and you realize that you were missing big parts of the picture of who your friend was. Many things, maybe most, don’t get translated into words and narratives.
This is why advice giving is so limited. The advice-giver is usually missing big parts of the picture.
So, how about for you? Do your narratives here in your journal capture a great portion of how your life is and feels?