ST4 w/ PCC + Regeneration
ST1 revealed to me (through tough reconciliation) what and who needed to go, in order to move forward. Now three months later, it’s time to act. Time to move on.
Emotionally moving on from the past, from feeling stuck in a spider’s web of attachment trauma, parental abuse, primal terror fears, flashbacks, insults, school embarrassments, backstabbing at work, betrayal and dismissal by those who I was peers with, had a thing for and even the university I studied with.
Thanks to Regeneration, it’s time to finally bury them all, cut them out and stop giving all of them my energy.
Forgiving is what they call it, apparently… I prefer “cremating the past”.
It’s all about me:
Enjoying the increased focus on my self. It’s been hard but reserving my energy for me, stopping the ingrained cycle of giving so much and getting taken advantage of and being emotionally abused. Whilst in the other city, I felt such a strong inner solidity that nobody with their prejudices could touch me, nor those who don’t care can’t get in because I give these people nothing. None of my energy going to them to extract love and acceptance from others.
Got that new career! Negotiations with my current employer have finished and I’m now going to work with a new employer.
And, get this… An art commission! A small one of course, but it felt good to up the paint brush in almost four months. All this came to me. Letting people come to me, instead of chasing others.