My self esteem is still holding up. When I don’t listen to Regeneration or Elixir for one night, I get mini triggered by others. When I’m back on it, it’s fine, in fact better. It just means that I be always working on myself and my inner traumas until I can start take the training wheels off.
I can feel the Ascension respect I’m giving off and getting the same respect back without the interference from past trauma.
Heal the child first:
Saw an awesome comment on a forum that gave advice to a victim of childhood abuse. He stated that before you can build social power, self esteem and be alpha - you MUST address how you were raised. He gave Mike Tyson as a brilliant example of a person who had the money, status and power, yet emotionally he was still that 5 year old boy crying to be loved unconditionally. Tyson’s wounds made him an easy target for the unscrupulous women who preyed on his need to be loved.
Stood up for myself by being a little PCC snake with my supervisor at my other part time work, who all of sudden decided to shit on all of us before our shift. Considering that we already know what to do and we’re dilligent good workers, it was completely out of the blue, so I said that much to him.
So, to get them back, I pulled two mini PCC power moves, which happened automatically:
- Same supervisor wanted my signature on paper, so I wrote it on his back!
- End of shift, returning my uniform back to the wrong counter and putting up a bit of a huff, which the counter person in charge took it and walked right walk across the room to do so!
more PCC stuff
PCC is supposed to be smooth, apparently we’re executing the script and don’t even know it. I certainly feel cool calm and collected. But I couldn’t tell you exactly what I was doing to avoid being someone’s little bitch. But little acts of insubordination and sarcasm seem to be part of the arsenal.
I’m amazed that those two acts happened, especially #2. The counter guy didn’t need to take it upon himself to do that, but was maybe put under pyschological pressure by me. Again unconsciously.
Also, this one woman co-worker tried to make me her bitch by constantly ordering me to do stuff, yet I kept coming up with subtle counter measures to mitigate her manipulation attempts.
PCC - defensive AND offensive!