Huge. Can I suggest something? Two phrases, which must be pronounced silently or aloud but with feelings.
Phrase 1: “I acknowledge all those people in my life, in my ancestral system and past lives, to whom being wealthy costed their lives and I give them a place in my soul”.
“I acknowledge all those people in my life, in the ancestral system and in past lives to whom voluntary rejection of being wealthy allowed to stay alive and also giving them a place in my soul”.
100% it is invisible loyalty issue. I saw this a hundred of times. The Will is unable to break thru this issues.
Hope this phrases will help you to start healing loyaltie’s restrictions.
P.S. Yeah, yeah “self-punishment” issues and etc. Very familiar.