Nightly update, Mon 10/08/20
One hour of Libertine with half an hour (1 mala) Kamdev gayatri and 2 malas of Kleem (18 min approx, in two spaced sets of 9 min). Profile pic updated per the experiment.
Very positive chat with ex #1 tonight (#2 still as expected no communication). Positive feedback on last nights profile pic and a long discussion about the PUA community, male female dynamics and personal healing. Over the years since the break-up we’ve almost never stopped having stimulating chats together, and I had to give mad kudos to them this evening for the comparison of how in touch she is with objectivity in the realms of male female dynamics and insight into peoples wounds, healing etc. She told me a story of how they stuck up for a male teacher who had been attacked by some hardcore feminists who were trying to have him accused of sexism and getting thanked in private by some of the other women in the class who felt the same way she did but didn’t speak up. I won’t go into gruesome detail about the chat but there was mutual appreciation shared there which was a nice way to end the night before my mantra practice. It was also good to have someone female who knew the woman who called me a misogynist recognize the traps the person was falling into of self limiting language etc.
Positive response from the girl who re-added me (who from now on I’ll call J for short to mask the name) to a picture I took last night of me in my underwear and a superman shirt joking about becoming Tony Stark. A heart on the pic and encouragement to “keep it up” (the self work I’m doing).
I’m not going to make a habit of noting every little thing over the course of the next six weeks that my lady friends do, every heart and every positive sentence, but at the start of this journey its useful to note it down to show myself that it is happening and positive reactions to my selfies or everyday posts are happening more regularly than they had been in the past, which may be seen as signs of the subliminals working, or assisting in conjunction with the mantras. Given my prior experience particularly with the Kleem mantra and the gayatri, I feel these two are vitally important. But Kleem especially, and I can separate what it does from what the gayatri does.
The gayatri aligns my consciousness with that of Kamadev and petitions him for help in healing specific aspects of my life, while Kleem is more multi-purpose and brings assistance in more areas of my life. I think more than anything the Kleem was what caused things to take off like a rocket twice in the past, including my last work with it 3 years ago and one experience with it 1-2 years earlier. As a matter of fact, the 1-2 years earlier Kleem experiment almost saw a Canadian girl move out to Australia to live with me, but I didn’t have the focus to stick with the mantra and she ended up marrying a rock star lesson learnt, but the best outcome anyway.