As for today’s journal, I wasn’t able to finish my project even though I thought I could. I did find this amazing show called Lucifer and have been obsessed with it as his character seems like someone I would like to be like one day so he is kinda like a role model to me.
These past few days I have noticed I haven’t been doing much and kinda just been staying at my place watching stuff, I even skipped a week of classes. Its kinda like a depressing vibe but I have a feeling its regen doing deep work that I cannot process consciously coz I have noticed some self-reflection and fear coming up, I have even noticed my subconscious coming in my way and finding excuses to not run elixir and I just noticed it today so I guess I will have to use willpower to run it anyways.
Other then that not much has happened, just some realizations, things I should do and not do but hoping this phase passes soon so I can go back to living a normal life and actually make my life more fun.