My situation is a bit different. I only began using Stark because I wanted to experience Terminus.
My experience so far has been pretty rewarding. From the start, I combined Stark Q Terminus with my morning meditation hour (and, incidentally, with a qigong breathing exercise). On the first day or several days, I used one repetition of Stark Q Terminus, in the meditation hour. After a couple of days, I introduced Stark Q Terminus to my core playlist, so on non-rest days, I get two repetitions of Stark Q Terminus.
My gut tells me I could ‘handle’ more, but I’m happy with this for now.
The experiences in the moment of listening were generally calm and stimulating. I had one or two obvious psychic events occur. The first was 4 days ago. About 35 minutes (by my estimate), I thought of a friend with whom I have not been communicating regularly. I imagined her giving me a particular message. The message itself was somewhat predictable, so that in itself was not so notable.
But when I completed the hour and reactivated my phone/data service (I keep it turned off during the meditation), the various notifications and messages pinged into the phone, and…yup…at about 35 minutes into the meditation time, there was an e-mail from the same friend with the exact message.
The other event was from today. During this morning’s meditation session, the word ‘volatile’ came to my mind. Just one more in the flow of sensations and perceptions, but it stood out.
When I completed the meditation session and turned on the phone service, an e-mail caught my eye about how to invest in periods of increased market volatility.
Spontaneous, genuine expression
I have found in meetings that I am somewhat more willing to express my thoughts and ideas. It’s not to the point of seeming like a personality change. These are ideas that I might have expressed previously; but I just notice an increased smoothness to it. Yesterday, I sat, with another colleague, on a type of evaluative committee. People who had been working on a given task for 3 months, prepared a kind of summary presentation. I and the colleague sat to observe the presentation and offer feedback and reactions. There were 7 presentations that each took 1 hour.
Basically, I felt an increased smoothness to that interaction.
The same has been true for Zoom meetings that have taken place.
Negative or Disruptive Symptoms
Not much here. No headaches. No intense dreams. No unusual fatigue (I got 4 hours of sleep before yesterday’s full day of evaluating presentations and skipped breakfast as well. Felt basically fine, other than a brief blood sugar fluctuation and drowsiness after scarfing down lunch.)
I have experienced some procrastination, but it’s been more or less conventional. And, upon reflection, maybe slightly less than I’ve experienced in the past with similar tasks. (Low motivation tasks that come up twice a year.)
Also, as I’ve mentioned elsewhere, I found my mind pulled to some dark artistic pieces (the auteur-driven horror films of Ari Aster Midsommar and Hereditary). These actually affected me quite a bit, and triggered a kind of short but intense internal crisis. I won’t go into the details but it was, metaphorically, a bit like a brief fever that both 1) temporarily disrupts and weakens you and 2) leaves you cleared out and ready for an enhanced level of performance.
I plan to continue working with Stark Q Terminus. I find myself looking forward to when Terminus-level versions of Emperor and Ecstasy of Gold may be offered as well.
I’ve been through my modest versions of Terror and Dark Night experiences in the past. I’ve observed (from a comfortable distance) my Void. I found nothing manly or heroic about getting through those experiences, and I have nothing to prove to anyone about those things. No thanks. So, @SaintSovereign, you recommend 1 loop of Stark Q Terminus; and I played 1 loop. No problem. And it’s worked great so far.