Well last night I couldnt resist, my ex continued the provocation and I gave in, We talked about it before and agreed it was just sex, nothing would change.
I knew I shouldnt do it, but did anyway. Im not going to regret it, but its a reminder for being more honest with myself.
This morning we had a fight that reminded me once again that I needed to leave for good.
At this moment Im at my brothers house, Ive already brought most of my stuff. I feel relieved.
My ex insisted that we can change and things can be better and all that, frankly that requires the will to change and that a common ground is stablished.
We both live in such different realitys that theres nothing to build upon, I just dont love her and the kind of life she is used to, seems so strange for me after all the changes Ive been through.
I want to be on my own, take care of my short commings and grow as a person.
The thing is that since I made the decision of ending the relationship, the amount of fast manifestations helping me to move has been and continues to be outstanding, its like a door got opened and the road is clear.