I will be bringing back my old stack of EQ and PS, Rebirth and on occasion Sanguine; and I’ll be staying with DR ST1 no matter how long it takes, until I feel I’m ready for ST2.
Since I’ve already used this stack for more than a month, I’m interested to see what deeper changes it could do if I stayed longer. All of you are right, I must maintain my focus. I suppose the initial euphoria of Stark and DR lured my already undisciplined mind to drop my guard.
One thing I know, SC was not kidding when they said “To get ready” in DR’s description. Now I understand what they meant by that. Still, I thank them for it, because with this kind of baggage, it would take something special to repair the damage.
Perhaps rebuild everything from the ground up while I still have time.
In the midst of all this discomfort, there’s a part of me that feels good, feels proud. If I could talk to myself 2 weeks ago, I’d tell myself, tough it out.
Deep inside, I know what I need most is healing, and even though I briefly reshuffled my stacks, there’s something in me that would not touch DR. It’s actually surprising to me.
In the midst of all this mental fog and confusion, I know, I need this to build a strong foundation in my mind, something clear of negativity, defeatism and pessimism.
Burn them all.