I began running StarkQ on release so this is now a [STACKED] journal.
Having a good, active sex life has been a constant challenge for me as an adult, but I finally feel that I’ve created enough tangible progress in this area and that it will continue.
Not sure if it was Emperor, or StarkQ, but I manifested an old lover into my life. We matched on Tinder after months of not talking to each other and she was supposed to come over today, but she’s coughing so we postponed it. Old lovers are a sign that manifestation is working because the easiest people to manifest into your life are the people who’ve already been in it.
I was in the process of setting up a date for this weekend as well with another girl, but while we were working out times I’m sure I came off a bit needy because I needed to fuck right then and there, and didn’t play things cool. We’ll see what happens with that.
Theres also a third woman on the hook now, but with both the virus and just how difficult it is to get some women out on dates, its another we’ll see situation.
Also I have a friend of mine managing my Tinder for me, and I do the same for him. He offered last week and I believe this is a manifestation. I couldn’t figure out online dating for the life of me and he gave me a whole outline of his Tinder game that is functional. There’s 0 pressure because its not even my Tinder lol. Also being able to detach from results has made all of this very easy for me.
So the girls department is now good. I don’t have any tangible results yet, but its only a matter of time. I’ve positioned myself between 3 likely candidates, and a few more who may or may not come through. If there wasn’t a whole pandemic going on I’m sure 1-2 of them would have hooked.
So within the month of running EmperorQ I went from frustrated sex life to having a tangible system and seeing results. Now that this is handled, I want to focus on much more important things.
My job isn’t that great but even though, I still find myself wanting to master it.
I have to spend 8+ hours a day there, so why not?
Also there’s other departments available to work in that I may be suited for. I’m going to master my job and get my boss on my side so I can move on to those positions with the highest recommendations.
Other than that I’ll be looking for a new job once this whole pandemic is over.
At work today I basically imagined two products I could make within a very short period of time and sell. I’ve never done this, but I do know how it works, so I’m going to try it.
One of the products is basically 50% complete, I just never finished it. A really big obstacle for me was always anxiety and shame in this department.
“I shouldn’t teach this, there’s someone way better at this than me.” Or really digging in at my biggest flaws to show why I shouldn’t, but none of that is there right now. This just seems like a very fun side project for me, in two areas I have an interest in and know I could benefit people. Easy.
My friend is interested in programming and has been doing 1-2 hrs a day on top of having a family and work. He’s always talking about it, how he sees his life becoming so much better when he finally gets the job he wants. I work with him and see him on my breaks and thats all he ever talks about.
I don’t like being at work, and probably never will, but as long as its still the most consistent source of income, I might as well make something interesting and get paid doing it.
So I’m starting my programming journey as I feel that the universe is pushing me and it makes the most sense. When I think of programming, rather than thinking of doom and gloom like I used to (lots of math that I’m not good at, I’m not naturally talented, etc) I actually feel excited.