ST1 - Day 23 - 112h - 3/3/20 - Post 2
Oh my this is a desaster. My anxiety this morning was even worse than yesterday. It’s horrible. I just wanted to be far away from everyone and everything and get under my cozy blanket at home. Anxiety/Fear is just horrible. I don’t wish that on anyone.
Later on this got better luckily so at work I wasn’t as awkward as yesterday, but still pretty shy although we are just 3 people there. But I feel like this gets better.
What definitely is a problem though is that for now there is no possibility for me to play EoG/LD at work because I am talking alot with the manager about everything to understand and learn the basics by heart. But I guess this will change in a week or two.
Other than that… I should stop the afternoon nap. I feel like it just makes me even more tired. I should sleep less and meditate more.
Oh yes, I wanted to tell you about this! Something is going on in my life behind the scene right now. There are too many coincidences all happening in the past few weeks and they get more and more.
Friends of mine start talking about a topic which is very uncommon and a topic I just thought about the day before for example.
Here are some synchronicities from today, but I forgot a few, so this is incomplete.
- A guy at work wearing the same jacket like me. The jacket isn’t that common.
- A friend of mine asked me yesterday about a series, I just happened to think of this series yesterday, but I watched it years ago
- My boss has a whiteboard at work, where he drew out the process of the business. I just thought “It is a pretty detailed map, imagine I’d just erase it”. A minute later he did just that.
- We talked about education and I asked if I could see some of the books he brought to the office. One of them is a small booklet about The Law of Attraction
Really, there were more things like this happening lately. For example the woman that got treated by the medics at the dentist’s. A few hours ago I told my mom sarcastically “Just imagine what horrible things could happen to someone, even without your doing!” I meant it as a joke and when this happened I instantly remembered it. It was really stupid and foolish of me.
Anyway, I don’t know why this is happening now. Maybe because of EoG, maybe because Limit Destroyer helps with manifesting. I don’t know.
Edit: Another synchronicity just after I wrote this. For days this song “Mad world” is stuck in my head and now I saw a Donnie Darko-Ad in a Comic Book I read.