No DR this morning. One loop of St2 already this afternoon. Listening to a loop of St1 right on its tail.
After reading @Simon’s toolkit perspective on stages yesterday, then taking time and reading it again this afternoon, I’m doing a loop of St1 currently. It challenges and questions certain fears I’ve even rarely admitted to myself, so I’m listening now.
It’s kind of strange. While on St1, I was edgy a bit mostly since I kept imagining (or fearing) worse memories surfacing. It tried to keep me locked up, it did a little, but Harmonic Singularity worked on me a lot. I’m feeling a little relaxed now while listening to St1.
I enjoyed running Regeneration this morning–mostly since it’s grown to be a more familiar feeling after running it so much. I’ve been thinking of DR St4 recently, mostly since I desire to be familiar with a sub over time. I’m sure I’ll do a St4 custom, but it’s still a ways away. While reading other’s reports of staying with a sub long term, I really want to do that. I’ve done it before with other subs, and putting enough time in with a sub such as DR would be life changing. I’ve even found those stubborn fears have less and less power over time with any sub long-term.
I’m feeling St1 work on my fearful mindset as I write. That’s a sign for me that it’s really working. For the future, should I stack? Should I switch? Or maybe…I should just enjoy what I’m feeling and thinking right now. I’m used to “holding on” so tightly… and it’s all fear calling itself “truth”. I see the lies easier now. I’m liking St1.