I’ve been listening to music.
Comparing yesterday’s feelings and thoughts to today’s.
I’m just feeling so grateful. And truly relaxed (relieved). It comes and goes.
I sat after writing the above. Part of me is looking for my old ways, and is even sad about the change.
Backing up to a spiritual reading I read yesterday, one guy said nothing changed for him until he admitted to God he couldn’t do it himself. I’ve really, really, REALLY tried to control my life and experiences, and I’ve failed again, again, and again.
I’ve been wary of spiritual changes since…well, no reason. It’s just something I could occupy myself trying to control everything. Fear enjoys its own isolated, lonely mission.
I wrote all this admitting that my spiritual walls are being challenged. But it feels like it’s coming from within myself. I don’t fight when it comes from within.
Very brilliant @Fire and @SaintSovereign