On a purely intellectual level, your points are legitimate. But the emotions you report in association with those points do seem like reconciliation.
A smart person can always make a legitimate point. It’s the emotions that we need to be on the lookout for. They give additional information.
I think for people who are running very major programs or who are trying to make much more radical changes, you’re not going to see overnight changes. But when their changes do come it will be all the more meaningful.
For people who are already engaged in constant action and who use more pinpointed programs, results are faster.
In my case, I chose to start with the biggest, most intransigent issues first. Old, long-standing issues that require more time and work. By nature, I’m a patient person (at least compared to most). And this approach appeals to me.
The amazing thing to me now is that, after 5 months with Ecstasy of Gold, (currently 2 months into stage 3) I’m starting to feel the beginnings of deep, tectonic movements happening. That’s my preference. I tend to believe that easy come means easy go. I expect that belief and preference is in my subconscious as well. I want deep changes before broad or shallow ones.
The thing is the forum is great and everything, but you really only know what’s happening with you. The emotions you’re feeling are likely too be mostly about your own situation.